Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Change

Saying goodbye is never easy. Most of these people that I've been working with for the past year I will see again at some point - it just is always so bittersweet to see a season pass. These last 7 weeks (is it that soon?!) is going to be me getting some last minute travel in, getting a couple of gifts for folks back home, organizing my life for the next stage, and getting back into a couple of good habits that I let slide most of this year. I think 2012 definitely holds promise to be a great year!

I was talking to one of my best school friends the other day on Skype and we were talking about this year. She asked me how my year was - she proceeded to tell me that her year was a GREAT one. I had to stop and really think about my answer. If I was completely honest with her and myself, this year had a lot of trials for me - some physical, some mental, a couple spiritual, and a couple emotional. My health was the biggest ongoing issue and I think (knock on wood!) I'm past the worst of it - it can only go uphill now! But despite the hardships, this year was a really good year for me, too. I have been blessed so much and even with the ups and downs of living halfway across the world from my friends and family, with language and culture barriers, dealing with doctors who don't speak much English, not always having the small comforts of home (that surprisingly make a big difference), I can't deny or even begin to pretend that I didn't see the Lord's blessings in my life - the job, the people, the place(s), the life experiences, and growth have enriched me so much! So accounting for everything this past year has held, it has been one of the most trying years and yet, still one of the best years!

I can feel change in the air, I feel this season coming to an end and I can see a path that could have been but won't be. As much as part of me wishes I had the option to take that path, I also understand that there are other paths before me which are still open to me and which, I'm sure, will be just as wonderful if not more-so than the closed path. And who knows, as great as the closed path looked, it could have ended up being not so good. As of now, I can only see my path for about 2 months in front of me, from there, it splits into several paths and who knows where they may take me. But that's part of the journey, not knowing what may come, enjoying the ride, and having faith that God will take care of me, providing for me as he always has, and helping to guide my journey. I've had such a wonderful life journey so far - I can only imagine it will get better and more exciting through the years!

4 comments:

  1. Amen brother! I can't wait to see you (in person) when your journey brings you home for a bit. Love you!

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  2. Martin Luther King, Jr. said, "Faith is taking the first step even when you can't see the whole staircase."
    Appropriate to your post and also because its King Week!

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  3. Ok, and a long quote from Donald Miller's "Through Painted Deserts" on change:

    “And so my prayer is that your story will have involved some leaving and some coming home, some summer and some winter, some roses blooming out like children in a play. My hope is your story will be about changing, about getting something beautiful born inside of you about learning to love a woman or a man, about learning to love a child, about moving yourself around water, around mountains, around friends, about learning to love others more than we love ourselves, about learning oneness as a way of understanding God. We get one story, you and I, and one story alone. God has established the elements, the setting and the climax and the resolution. It would be a crime not to venture out, wouldn't it?

    It might be time for you to go. It might be time to change, to shine out.

    I want to repeat one word for you:
    Leave.

    Roll the word around on your tongue for a bit. It is a beautiful word, isn't it? So strong and forceful, the way you have always wanted to be. And you will not be alone. You have never been alone. Don't worry. Everything will still be here when you get back. It is you who will have changed.”

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  4. Change has always, always brought on very mixed emotions for me! But there is always such an exciting element to the unknown! What a great exercise in faith as well. I can't wait to see you in a few weeks!

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