Well, we are coming to the close of our 6th 12 day cruise and as usual, at the end of the embarkation talk, we sing "Love in Any Language" which is at the same time both touching and cliche. Today, however, it was more touching than cliche for me. I think because of what is happening in the world at the moment (with the anti-Islam video circulating YouTube and the subsequent riots and unrest in the countries of Northern Africa and the Middle East and then thinking of the inevitable backlash from THOSE actions to create more fear and hatred in the general American public towards the Middle East in general - which is VERY unfortunate) and the fact that my ship was supposed to be sailing to that part of the world - and can't now because of the violence and the company wanting to look after its passengers and crew - it just made that song hit home.
"I love you" may be said so differently in different places and those places may be so different from each other, but love is love anywhere and everywhere. It is interesting, to me, to think about the inherent differences in the cultures and regions of the world because of their societies and the traditions born of them. Yet, so many things in our human core are so similar. Instinctually and naturally we are all very similar - we have the same needs and same desires.
Now let's face it - culturally, religiously, politically, philosophically we may never agree on what's "right" or "acceptable" but if you look around at the world, people are living and functioning in varying societies that have been in existence for many years. We don't have to agree on everything, but if we could love our neighbor despite our differences and respect one another, imagine the difference that could be made in the world. All of that to say, I was touched by "Love in Any Language" today - it may be pure cheese, but it's got a great message to ponder!
And speaking of cruising, do you all (all 5 of my avid readers :-P) think that people tend to just turn their brains off when they go on vacation, or do you think the average cruiser is just not the brightest tool in the shed? Maybe I'm not talking necessarily about actual knowledge and smarts, but perhaps more about how you act in public around people - manners and such. I hear/see so many people just coughing all over the place without covering their mouths, using hands to touch food and things at the buffet, being rude to their fellow guests and generally impolite to the service staff. It just baffles me - were they not brought up right? Or do you think people pay money for a vacation and the thought is "well I paid for this, I'm entitled" and thus it subconsciously pushes some of their manners out the door?
Anything else of note going on in my life? Well, we've gotten into a general routine now that all cast members are caught up on choreography. Every 3 cruises, we repeat itineraries and most of our ports are Greek and Italian in origin, so it's kind of fun when we come back to Barcelona - tomorrow will only be my 3rd day there! AND…I'm picking up my sister for this next 7 day cruise! She is studying abroad in Munich, Germany this next year and she just moved there earlier this week, but she doesn't start classes until October. She still has some things to do to get fully situated and ready for classes, but she had free time during this cruise!
There are just not enough hours in the day to do everything I want, though. Despite getting into more of a routine as far as waking around the same time, going to bed around the same time, going to the gym or doing tech/shows around the same time, I'm still not able to do everything I'd like as I'm trying to take advantage (at least to some extent) of being in Europe while I have this opportunity. To put things into perspective, we are in the Mediterranean for about 4 months and do about 11 cruises (most of them 12 day cruises) and when we get to the Caribbean, we are there for 5.5 months and do only 7 day cruises…so there will be a lot more repeating, and from what I hear, a lot less to do as far as sightseeing goes. It's more about beaches, water-sports, and relaxing (and, in my case, saving money :) ). That is why blogs have been in short supply lately. I'm trying to maximize my daytime experiences…and typing blogs on the iPad, while possible, are highly impractical without a bluetooth keyboard.
Other updates - I went to Rome again. This time by myself and I only went to the Vatican Museum and St. Peter's Basilica. It was gorgeous and a lot less stressful - and I saw rain!! The 2nd time only in about 4 months. I still kinda felt on edge the whole time until I got on a train headed back for the port, but it was much less stressful overall. I also went to The Pinnacle restaurant on the ship for the first time this cruise (and the Tamarind for the 3rd time). It was delicious and nearly everything a nice meal should be. Also, heading back towards Barcelona, we've experienced more fall-like temperatures. While we won't get to watch leaves change, probably, Greece is a bearable temperature, Turkey and most of Italy is just downright perfect as far as temperature (despite higher risks of rain). I think we'll be heading to the Caribbean at just the right time.
We also have lost several friends and a couple of stagehands along the way. Ship life is weird like that - you live in a bubble (a floating hotel) and every 7-12 days the guests change, the staff is constantly changing as well. Peoples' contracts may be 4-12 months long in general, but it's all rotational, so every cruise we are losing people and getting new ones. My life is constantly in transition here and reminds me that my time traveling with this ship and these people is transient. On a deeper level, I suppose it is a reminder that life itself is transient and we are all here for (in the grand scheme of things) merely the blink of an eye. I sometimes find myself sad and feeling even slightly lonely or homesick when I think of how my world is constantly changing and people are coming and going, but whether I'm here or on land, people are always going to come and go at some point in my life. I think it's natural to feel that way, but also healthy to remember to be grateful for the time that you are given with the people in your life and just to be grateful for life and health in general. Amen?
Alright, that's about all of note that I have right now. To the gym I go. I get to see my sister in less than 24 hours!
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Saturday, September 15, 2012
Monday, August 23, 2010
Family
For those few of you who are following my blog - it has been a while! I have been content for the past couple of weeks just going out with friends, sleeping in, and getting back into the regular workout habit. I start one show weeks this week! My body is ready for the rest. I'm also getting organized and geared up for a lovely 6 day break/trip up to NYC to audition and be with loved ones that I haven't seen in a while. I am looking very much forward to it!
What's been on my mind and heart today is family. Contemplating what the word means to me, what my family means to me, and how much I love them all blood-relation or not. When some people think of family they may think of a husband and wife and children. They may think of a mom and kids, a dad and kids, parents, grandparents, children, aunts, uncles, cousins. People may have close friends or family friends that for one reason or another have come to be thought of as part of a family - an intimate bond of friendship. Some people may have formed a group of people around them that are very close knit because of a group of shared characteristics, bonds, or ideals that make them, for all intents and purposes, a family. However you look at it, there are several definitions. All of them are legitimate.
For me, I have several uses of the word that I want to ponder on. As an entertainer, especially a younger entertainer, I'm prone to the gypsy lifestyle. I travel around a lot! Granted I've been in one place for over a year now, this is still a temporary home for me. Since my blood family is usually not where I am, I always accumulate a small handful of close relations wherever I am that I can call my family. I'm not always the best at communicating - I have always been a very independent person even when growing up. I would often go sit in my room by myself and read or listen to music and do nothing else. I like people's company, but I also like the freedom of doing stuff on my own. It is relaxing and somewhat therapeutic for me. Still, relationships are important and even though I may leave those close friends behind at the end of the contract and not talk to them for months at a time, the fact remains that they are still my loved ones who have been there for me and impacted me greatly. Even those people who may not be my closest friends, but are a part of my every day life on a day to day basis I consider family to some extent. I think it's almost a requirement to form relationships fairly quickly in a performer's life and it is also fairly inevitable because you are ultimately becoming vulnerable with those people when you share your emotions and life with those people on stage. So while Joe Smith who works a desk job at a big law firm may only interact with his co-workers on a business level at work through meetings and exchanges and maybe on a slightly more personal level when on a lunch break or at a bar with a couple of buddies after work - they (more than likely) are still work buddies and there is a wall that separates buds and friends from the more intimate relationship of family. Now, that is just a generalization and on the flip side of things, not everyone in the performing world opens up and shares personal lives and stories with everyone - it just tends to be a more open, more close-knit (almost by necessity) group of people by nature...in general from what I've gathered. And of course there are variances with gender relationships and all - but that's getting a bit more sociological than I intended. All in all performers are quick to be on a more intimate level with their friendships.
So I have my performing families. And regardless of who I consider family while I'm performing, I always have those really close handful of folks that will be there for me and I for them for a lifetime. I tend to meld my college friends who I consider family into that category as well - the performing family. After all, we are all performers in some respect or another!
Church family - my friends growing up from church that I have known since birth and even the people that are not as much friends but folks who have taken an interest in my life and have helped raise me in some form or fashion. I consider them family. Of course you have some that are closer than others...but that's the same with blood relations as well. Cousins that I have that are blood related but that I haven't seen in years or really talk to at all. I treat them like family and love on them when I do see them, but my heart doesn't hurt badly when I don't. That doesn't mean that I care for them any less, we just aren't as big a part of each others' lives as some people are. Of course there are the closer ones. Friends I've had in church that I have known virtually my whole life. They are part of my church family, but by extension of what they mean to me, they are part of MY family. I love them dearly.
And of course the immediate blood-relations. Grandparents, aunts, uncles, 1st cousins, and mom, dad, and sister. My closest family. And yet, as I said, I'm very independent and even with them sometimes a period of time as much as a couple of weeks will go by when I haven't called them or they haven't called me. I'll hear updates and sometimes we'll talk several times in a week. I usually hear from them or call one of them about once a week. They have been on my heart a lot lately. I know they know that I love them and I know that they love me. But hey, it never hurts to say it once in a while - and I'm in a thoughtful, communicative mood.
My dad is an incredible man. He is one of the most disciplined, hard-working person I know. When he puts his mind to learning something or doing something, he works until he has achieved his goals (a valuable trait that I admire so much and strive to have). He is athletic and for an (dare I say it) almost 50 year old - is in excellent physical condition. He has worked his tail off to provide for his family. He is a great story teller. He has always been the voice of reason for me. Sometimes he is a bit stubborn in his ways but he knows what he thinks and why he thinks it. If I ever need sound advice (even if I don't want to hear it) I know I can ask him and he can impart some wisdom or even plain ol' common sense. Everything that he has ever done for me, said to me, given me, or shown me has been to ultimately mold me into a more upright, respectable person - like him. I never shared his love of team sports with him - which saddens me. I haven't shared some of the typical father-son pastimes/bonds that others share like throwing a football or baseball around the yard or playing golf. I did enjoy riding bikes with my dad when I lived at home. I enjoy being around him. I love the fact that he encouraged me and cheered me at my swim meets. I love that I got to act with him - even if it was a little skit at church. He is a wonderful man and although there is a bit of stoicism about him at times, he is a warm, kind, funny and loving man - whether he says it or not, I know he loves me very much. And I love him.
My mother is a beautiful woman both inside and out. She is so strong and patient. She just had surgery for breast cancer and they got it all! She has recovered and healed like a champ. She is a great conversationalist and always a willing ear if you need someone to talk to. We'll talk about anything from catching up type stuff to pop culture to music to religion to whatever else. She, like my father, walks by the Holy Spirit and you can tell by the light and love in her eyes. She is very encouraging always and is a great person to go to if I just need to talk things out about whatever. She's a fantastic cook and thankfully, for us kids, made sure we ate healthy - and when we requested healthy stuff (i.e. more fruit in the house or even specific fruit or veggies, a lower carb diet, healthier beverages) she would get it. The part time worker that she was, she was the one who was around the house more during the days or immediately after school. She taught us to be clean and organized. When we were sick she treated us and to this day if I'm feeling bad and miss my mother, she is there on the other end of the phone giving me advice and telling me she loves me. And I love her.
Between my two parents, I really couldn't have asked for a better upbringing. As I've transitioned into adulthood they are there for me with advice but also allow me to be my own person. I know they wish me happiness with my life and career. I never really asked them if they approve of my career choice. I told them my passion for music and what I wanted to do, and whether they liked it or not, they supported and cheered me on. They helped me to go to the school that I wanted to go to (even suggested it before I even knew much about it). The career, of course, comes with its ups and downs (holidays away or shorter vacations with family stink!). But they have dealt with it like champs and I suppose I have, too. My parents were always encouraging and loving, they never were overly praising though. I suppose, wisely, they thought that praise should be earned through hard work, perseverance, and working towards/meeting goals, and not given freely. I am thankful for that. They have told me enough for me to know that they do love me and are proud parents but not so much that I think I deserve it for any reason other than the results of my labors. I love my parents so much and think they are wonderful people. I have been so blessed with my family.
And of course, I can't NOT mention my sister! I talk about her a lot in these blogs, but then again she is my sister, best friend, confidant, goof off person, and any number of other wonderful qualities that you can imagine. Intelligent, artistic, adventuresome, handy, beautiful, hard-working, funny, and kind are a few adjectives that come to mind immediately when I think of my sister. A great person to talk to or just hang out with, my sister is someone I can and do share anything with. I love her so so much! And I'm really glad we never went through a phase where we just hated each other or anything!
So to all of my family - mom, dad, sister, cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents, performers, church friends, and school friends. I love you, I love you, I love you. Whether you raised me, grew up with me, are an intimate friend, or just a solid person that has invested your time and friendship in me, you are my family. You are so important to me and I thank you for being a part of my life! Because God put you in my life, I feel so full and joyful! To those that become my family in the future - I can't wait to meet you! To those who are already a part of my family - I'm so thankful and glad to know you and the best is yet to come :)
However you define family - family is a beautiful thing.
What's been on my mind and heart today is family. Contemplating what the word means to me, what my family means to me, and how much I love them all blood-relation or not. When some people think of family they may think of a husband and wife and children. They may think of a mom and kids, a dad and kids, parents, grandparents, children, aunts, uncles, cousins. People may have close friends or family friends that for one reason or another have come to be thought of as part of a family - an intimate bond of friendship. Some people may have formed a group of people around them that are very close knit because of a group of shared characteristics, bonds, or ideals that make them, for all intents and purposes, a family. However you look at it, there are several definitions. All of them are legitimate.
For me, I have several uses of the word that I want to ponder on. As an entertainer, especially a younger entertainer, I'm prone to the gypsy lifestyle. I travel around a lot! Granted I've been in one place for over a year now, this is still a temporary home for me. Since my blood family is usually not where I am, I always accumulate a small handful of close relations wherever I am that I can call my family. I'm not always the best at communicating - I have always been a very independent person even when growing up. I would often go sit in my room by myself and read or listen to music and do nothing else. I like people's company, but I also like the freedom of doing stuff on my own. It is relaxing and somewhat therapeutic for me. Still, relationships are important and even though I may leave those close friends behind at the end of the contract and not talk to them for months at a time, the fact remains that they are still my loved ones who have been there for me and impacted me greatly. Even those people who may not be my closest friends, but are a part of my every day life on a day to day basis I consider family to some extent. I think it's almost a requirement to form relationships fairly quickly in a performer's life and it is also fairly inevitable because you are ultimately becoming vulnerable with those people when you share your emotions and life with those people on stage. So while Joe Smith who works a desk job at a big law firm may only interact with his co-workers on a business level at work through meetings and exchanges and maybe on a slightly more personal level when on a lunch break or at a bar with a couple of buddies after work - they (more than likely) are still work buddies and there is a wall that separates buds and friends from the more intimate relationship of family. Now, that is just a generalization and on the flip side of things, not everyone in the performing world opens up and shares personal lives and stories with everyone - it just tends to be a more open, more close-knit (almost by necessity) group of people by nature...in general from what I've gathered. And of course there are variances with gender relationships and all - but that's getting a bit more sociological than I intended. All in all performers are quick to be on a more intimate level with their friendships.
So I have my performing families. And regardless of who I consider family while I'm performing, I always have those really close handful of folks that will be there for me and I for them for a lifetime. I tend to meld my college friends who I consider family into that category as well - the performing family. After all, we are all performers in some respect or another!
Church family - my friends growing up from church that I have known since birth and even the people that are not as much friends but folks who have taken an interest in my life and have helped raise me in some form or fashion. I consider them family. Of course you have some that are closer than others...but that's the same with blood relations as well. Cousins that I have that are blood related but that I haven't seen in years or really talk to at all. I treat them like family and love on them when I do see them, but my heart doesn't hurt badly when I don't. That doesn't mean that I care for them any less, we just aren't as big a part of each others' lives as some people are. Of course there are the closer ones. Friends I've had in church that I have known virtually my whole life. They are part of my church family, but by extension of what they mean to me, they are part of MY family. I love them dearly.
And of course the immediate blood-relations. Grandparents, aunts, uncles, 1st cousins, and mom, dad, and sister. My closest family. And yet, as I said, I'm very independent and even with them sometimes a period of time as much as a couple of weeks will go by when I haven't called them or they haven't called me. I'll hear updates and sometimes we'll talk several times in a week. I usually hear from them or call one of them about once a week. They have been on my heart a lot lately. I know they know that I love them and I know that they love me. But hey, it never hurts to say it once in a while - and I'm in a thoughtful, communicative mood.
My dad is an incredible man. He is one of the most disciplined, hard-working person I know. When he puts his mind to learning something or doing something, he works until he has achieved his goals (a valuable trait that I admire so much and strive to have). He is athletic and for an (dare I say it) almost 50 year old - is in excellent physical condition. He has worked his tail off to provide for his family. He is a great story teller. He has always been the voice of reason for me. Sometimes he is a bit stubborn in his ways but he knows what he thinks and why he thinks it. If I ever need sound advice (even if I don't want to hear it) I know I can ask him and he can impart some wisdom or even plain ol' common sense. Everything that he has ever done for me, said to me, given me, or shown me has been to ultimately mold me into a more upright, respectable person - like him. I never shared his love of team sports with him - which saddens me. I haven't shared some of the typical father-son pastimes/bonds that others share like throwing a football or baseball around the yard or playing golf. I did enjoy riding bikes with my dad when I lived at home. I enjoy being around him. I love the fact that he encouraged me and cheered me at my swim meets. I love that I got to act with him - even if it was a little skit at church. He is a wonderful man and although there is a bit of stoicism about him at times, he is a warm, kind, funny and loving man - whether he says it or not, I know he loves me very much. And I love him.
My mother is a beautiful woman both inside and out. She is so strong and patient. She just had surgery for breast cancer and they got it all! She has recovered and healed like a champ. She is a great conversationalist and always a willing ear if you need someone to talk to. We'll talk about anything from catching up type stuff to pop culture to music to religion to whatever else. She, like my father, walks by the Holy Spirit and you can tell by the light and love in her eyes. She is very encouraging always and is a great person to go to if I just need to talk things out about whatever. She's a fantastic cook and thankfully, for us kids, made sure we ate healthy - and when we requested healthy stuff (i.e. more fruit in the house or even specific fruit or veggies, a lower carb diet, healthier beverages) she would get it. The part time worker that she was, she was the one who was around the house more during the days or immediately after school. She taught us to be clean and organized. When we were sick she treated us and to this day if I'm feeling bad and miss my mother, she is there on the other end of the phone giving me advice and telling me she loves me. And I love her.
Between my two parents, I really couldn't have asked for a better upbringing. As I've transitioned into adulthood they are there for me with advice but also allow me to be my own person. I know they wish me happiness with my life and career. I never really asked them if they approve of my career choice. I told them my passion for music and what I wanted to do, and whether they liked it or not, they supported and cheered me on. They helped me to go to the school that I wanted to go to (even suggested it before I even knew much about it). The career, of course, comes with its ups and downs (holidays away or shorter vacations with family stink!). But they have dealt with it like champs and I suppose I have, too. My parents were always encouraging and loving, they never were overly praising though. I suppose, wisely, they thought that praise should be earned through hard work, perseverance, and working towards/meeting goals, and not given freely. I am thankful for that. They have told me enough for me to know that they do love me and are proud parents but not so much that I think I deserve it for any reason other than the results of my labors. I love my parents so much and think they are wonderful people. I have been so blessed with my family.
And of course, I can't NOT mention my sister! I talk about her a lot in these blogs, but then again she is my sister, best friend, confidant, goof off person, and any number of other wonderful qualities that you can imagine. Intelligent, artistic, adventuresome, handy, beautiful, hard-working, funny, and kind are a few adjectives that come to mind immediately when I think of my sister. A great person to talk to or just hang out with, my sister is someone I can and do share anything with. I love her so so much! And I'm really glad we never went through a phase where we just hated each other or anything!
So to all of my family - mom, dad, sister, cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents, performers, church friends, and school friends. I love you, I love you, I love you. Whether you raised me, grew up with me, are an intimate friend, or just a solid person that has invested your time and friendship in me, you are my family. You are so important to me and I thank you for being a part of my life! Because God put you in my life, I feel so full and joyful! To those that become my family in the future - I can't wait to meet you! To those who are already a part of my family - I'm so thankful and glad to know you and the best is yet to come :)
However you define family - family is a beautiful thing.
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